Slitting your wrists is the easy way out

God Im so bored!
The boredom comes in 2 parts. The first is short and new, the second is old and annoying!
1) I am at home at the moment which is always annoying (I love my family but they are soooooo boring)
2) Nothing interesting is happening in my life AT ALL.

Usually this isn't a problem, usually I can have a good long natter with Ellen (a v old friend) and get all cheered up. But no one has seen her for 6 months - she's off somewhere out of contact - so I'm stuck with no one to talk to properly grrrrrrr

It's also my fault because I pissed off most of the interesting people in my life. Now they wont talk to me (or are ignoring me - not sure which).

SO I need something interesting, dangerous and fun to do. I do have something but I swore a long time ago I wouldn't do it again - it's just too risky.

Grrrrrrrrr - I need help :P