Saturday, October 20, 2007

A Team who break the rules

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For 4 years the England rugby union team has not played up to the standard they set themselves in the 2003 world cup - even at the start of this years tournament they looked like a shadow of their former selves. But yet somehow, someway they have made it to the final - almost in secret.

People keep blathering on about how they've achieved nothing yet and are only here by grace and favor - but how many sports teams could come back from a 36-0 thrashing .to beat some of the best teams in the world in less than 3 weeks. Very few I would hazard!

England faced a very dark time, especially on the knockout stages. They didn't sh9ow any instant improvement or tournament winning style. What they did show was a refusal to be beaten by default and a massive desire to prove critics wrong. Most of all they finally seemed to want to win the damn thing.

With our usual humility even us Brits are still writing England off. Even the sports writers are predicting narrow Springbok wins. But tellingly no one is predicting a run away South African win, such as the teams' previous meeting would suggest. As David Hands writes in the times today, England are a team that "don't seem to know when they are beaten".

Against Australia we should have been thrashed, but we came out much stronger (if still struggling), the magic wasn't quite there and the Aussie's were formidable opposition but it was a start. In the end it came down to luck and a bit of a coup.

The France game seemed a bit more hopeful in the light of such improvement. Indeed they were nowhere and would have had a thrashing but for 3 terrible English mistakes gifting them their 9. After the astoundingly good first minute try it promised a magical match that never materialized. In the end it was a brilliant tense game but still not perfection.

So we have the skill and the gritty determination, today we need that magic and sparkle that makes a cup winning team. It would be like a fairytale for a team that was written off as outsiders after 4 years of hopelessness stepped up to the plate and said "yes, we are the best and can prove it".

Today England face a fitting finale, the team that handed them their drubbing just a few weeks ago now are all that stands between them and immortality.

Win or lose, this is going to be a fantastic game.

Monday, October 15, 2007

Valve kill 32 man TF2 servers.. but what is next...



This was posted on the HLDS mailing lists (list.valvesoftware.com) a little while ago today. It made me laugh for a bit but it also made me think a bit too.

Read it and see...

Hello, Let's run a book on which servers Valve will randomly filter out next, without even so much as the decency to tell us.

1) Australian servers. Let's face it, it's those pesky Australians who are so far up Valves sweet asses it must be embarrassing for Valve. Those Australians need to be taught a lesson to counter balance all of that Pacific rimming that's going on.
2) Servers that have an unusually high number of players with 8 digits. Come on let's face it. The 8 digit crew are all noobs, snotty nosed teenagers and haxors.
3) Servers outside the Western United States that have an unusually high number of players with 6 digits. If a server attracts the old and wise, they're community is going to be too smug.
4) Servers running FF.
5) Servers that sends the player into a different world where there is 1000's of custom skins and the admins have been sad enough to invest 500 odd man hours into creating a work of art, not to mention the modding communities whose total output dwarfs anything that has come out of Valve.
6) Servers that attract the top players. C'mon something has to be wrong, they're all hacking.
7) Servers that attract too many noobs. No scrub that, they're all in Washington State.
8) Servers that are running that new plugin, which lies about the total number of available slots.there's 32 slots but 24 are advertised!!!
9) Servers with unsuitable chat language for minors. 10) Servers with 2 slots, passworded, that say "Valve doesn't listen to server admins" as their server name.

Right. That's my list. Odds anyone?

Fact is Valve killed off 32 player servers by filtering them out of the master server list (as far as I follow it). IMO that's fine - it is hardly a killer blow to any servers and it's their choice after all! But the amount of craziness this move invoked has been staggering. I mean are Valve REALLY likely to start picking and choosing which mods (or types of mods) are allowed to run and filtering out servers running "unauthorized" ones?

Dammit they provide and API and SDK to allow people to make mods -they are not going to kill any off (unless of course they do serious damage - in which case such a move is understandable).

Plus how the hell will they pick out specific mods and kill them off? It would be a stupidly difficult task - and not one they are going to undertake (it's not as if they are Valve servers - you can do what you like with it!).

So yet again we get silly hype and scaremongering and Valve get a load of bad press in the server admin community. Sure they're not perfect and their updates do often break things or make silly changes. But give them a break - the service they provide is pretty damn fine considering they are still churning out game after game and, despite regular massive breakages, the engine is fairly stable and very powerful.

Why cant we all just enjoy the game for once???

(And I STILL haven't had time to buy and Orange box GRRRRRRR I'm running 7 TF2 servers and I'm not able to play any of them - THAT's a problem!)

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

A Law unto Himself (Murphy's law review)

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One of the problems with being a film buff is that TV drama is just so much less interesting nowadays - it has non of the gloss or realism a film has, nor the immersion you can get from it. Luckily those of us in this situation have the BBC to save us. Murphy's Law has from the start been gritty, gripping and engaging TV that rivals some of the best movies in it's genre.

For those who live under a stone the show follows Tom Murphy, an Irish undercover cop (in England) doing deep cover work in dangerous situations. In the latest series he is less of a field agent and more of a manager - at least he starts that way, things soon take a bad turn and he is back doing what he does best: kicking ass.

Of course the series is really made by James Nesbitt who is a fantastic actor. He brings realism to quite a hard role - he has to be hard, gritty AND show a soft side - all without it looking corny. And he pulls it off, just. It is wearing a bit thin by this series - they have been trying to build character depth since S2 but have done it in a very hazy and complicated way. In a way this enhances the mystery of Murphy but at the same time just confuses you. Many of the support characters and people in his life do not carry from series to series (and even episode to episode) and he seems to have so much 'history' he should be 400 years old.

Despite the shakiness Murphy's Law is still some of the best TV all year, we can forgive the mild plot holes and the occasional corny scene in light of the fact that it grips you from start to finish and leaves you wanting more. Thumbs up to the Beeb!

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Lets go Live

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I've been using Windows Live Messenger for a while now, along with Live OneCare as my security software. I have to say it is pretty good stuff, amazingly Microsoft have come up with good products! Today I tried 2 more offerings. Namely Live Mail and Live Writer.

Live Mail is simply an Outlook Express replacement. I say simply but it isn't wonderfully simple. It is not bad to set up but the interface is not wonderful.

That said it is quite clean, it does work and it is fast. My one major grouch is that message rules are complicated to setup. Well not complicated just a little long winded. Also there is no calendar included which is a big problem for me (as I use the one in Outlook quite a bit).

An 8/10 for the effort would be fair. At least it beats OE into the ground :)

Windows Live Writer!Live Writer on the other hand is another matter. Quite simply a stunning piece of software. I'm using it to write this blog at the moment and it's working well. Writer is a blogger program that connects to just about any blog you can imagine and lets you post to them in a WYSIWYG way. sweet.

My only annoyance with it is that it keeps putting <p> tags in every time I hit enter and a few other html annoyances. Not a huge problem but it could be cleaner.

But it has a spell checker, it has the ability to insert media (although the attempt above inserting from Screencast didn't go so well) and it has lots of features. One useful one is the ability to live preview your post as if it were published. If nothing else it might make me make a few more posts :P

So 9 or even 10 out of 10 for writer.

So a couple of highly recommended programs there - give them a go. Microsoft's Live Network seems to be working out ok!!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Of Beowulf

We are just sorting out our 3rd year degree projects at the moment. Somehow I think I've managed to convince them to let me loose on the departments 80 CPU Beowulf cluster (basically a load of fast PC's networked together into a BEAST!! :P).

The main focus of the project will be to create a parallel calculations algorithm to convert some slow serial calculations into fast parallel ones (or something like that).,

I'm well excited, mostly because it means I get to play with a powerful cluster (under supervision sadly :P) as well as do some cool research into an area I'm enthusiastic about. I'm finally excited about the course again!

I'll keep posting updates with how it's going :)

Saturday, September 22, 2007

The Beach

The Beach is one of my fav films - not least because of DiCaprio, who is a great actor - but I have never read the book... until now!

About halfway through and it's yet again one of those cases where the book is so much better even than the film. The Beach film was good, gritty and cool - the book goes a step[ beyond and makes you find something in yourself. It's style is so easy to read too and you really relate the main character (well I do).
Definitely recommended!

And at the same time I have been listening to the "Revelations" album by Audioslave. Very very good. I've never been into them before but they have an edginess that is fresh and nice. "The Curse" from the "Out of Exile" album is especially good :)

OpenSource capitalism

I was in WHSmiths today and saw a £7.50 magazine called "OpenOffice.org" (a one off - like you get now and again).

It had a cover disk with OO on it as well as tutorials and several plugins. And then it had about 25-30 pages of info about OO plus 15 ish pages of advertising / other stuff.

At first I was a bit annoyed that people are milking an open source project for their own gains (quickly replaced with disgruntlement that I hadn't thought of it first!!). Ok so they are writing the tutorials and compiling the disk but that cant cost much (I could write similar content in a couple of days and so could most of us here I should think!). The publishers must be making quite a packet out of it - and it's not as if the info isn't available (probably better written and more concise) online!

But then I thought a bit more and I realised that although it was blatant capitalism it could have a good effect. The mag was aimed at mid level computer users - or active learners - and so was massively raising the profile of OO. This has got to be a good thing right? I mean it basically means an open source piece of software is now marketable / commercial - aka mainstream.

There were 5 mags in the store I was in. Which means Smiths expected to sell at least that many. I've no idea how many WHSmiths stores there are or even if they rolled the mag to all of them (lets assume they did) but there must be a good 10,000 copies potentially to be sold... and that's not accounting for other shops either (well maybe it is! I'm just plucking numbers out of nowhere). Whatever the figures they amount to quite a large number of (potential converts).

Regardless it is a very high profile position to be in (what would happen if a FireFox mag was done??).

Any thoughts? Is it good having free software in a high profile position? Or will it have no real promotion effect and is it just a blatant rip-off money making scheme?

Unpacking is NOT FUN

I've been unpacking for 2 1/2 days now and it is crap :( I do about half an hrs worth then get bored and do something else!

I need organisation - if anyone has any please email it to me....

There will be some techie postings soon - just as soon as I get settled into the flat again :)

Monday, September 17, 2007

Why am I not psychic (and other rants!)

Since Saturday this week has NOT gone well.
1) Apparently the ability to read minds is required nowadays :( which is not good as it is something I'm never any good at! Yes the ability to telepathically know what someone wants / thinks is essential to surviving in our modern and oh so lovely world (sarcasm.... beautiful). I have a couple of perfect examples where my uselessness in this field recently stood out (and which I am blatantly not gonna share on so public a blog - find my private ones for that ;)). SO as a short plea for anyone sending silent messages to me - I CANT HEAR YOU. Nothing beats dropping me a line you know ;)

2) In other news my legs are falling off - or at least it feels the fuck like it. Apparently -playing American football after 3 months of no exercise is a BAD idea :(

3) And to cap it all I am missing most of freshers week stuck at home :( - although I managed to weasel out of flying to canada with a friend I still cant get back to Leeds till Wednesday.

Maybe next week will be better! :)

Friday, September 14, 2007

Xcitement - ish.....

I was planning to be in LA for the advanced screening of this next week! Will Swarm Atheist Action guy) organised a debate and then a protest outside.. I was hoping to get into the debate (he offered me a stage seat) and try and dissuade people from demonstrating. It's not exactly fair really.

People seem to be clashing over these issues more and more recently and that's not a good thing. Lets just get on with being ourselves right!?

Ok so the film is horrific (trust me you will be sick when you see the propaganda in it) and simply just trying to make money from a sensitive and easily railroaded issue, but that's obvious to anyone that watches it so hopefully it shouldn't "make it big".

Why people do this sort of thing is beyond me (and I am sure even religious supporters will agree the whole film is just a waste of time).

Sadly though I probably won't be there :( getting flights is proving impossible at the moment and I cant face a third round trip in as many weeks. I'm hoping a simple email to Will will (haha) suffice instead.

I doubt anyone would have listened to me - atheists just love a good fight :( :(

(My already low opinion of Stein has plummeted too - he should stick to trying to be funny.)

How not to go get a tan on a beach

It's easy to do. My measly tan from a day on an Italian beach is already fading! On the positive side Italy is great (and now my second favorite country!) - best of all was the food mmmmmm.

The most crazy thing though was the traveling - we spent well over 30hrs traveling there and back in total. Which is pretty insane. I pretty much never want to see a coach / plane / train seat ever again (catching a train home on Sunday will be FUN :()

One other good thing that came out of the trip though was a crazy plan to do a road trip around the US next year..... It's a nice idea but I'm not 100% sure about it yet. I really do have my sites set on some other places I want to visit (Tibet, Japan, Sout Africa, New Zealand, Chile....). As it stands it looks like those or the US :( tough choice.

Monday, September 03, 2007

God vs Dawkins

Today I started work on my new book "Dawkins vs God" subline: "The greatest battle of all: Religion and free Science". Despite the title I hope it is going to be an objective book as possible - although I feel the ultimate conclusions will be drawn in favor of Dawkins I hope it will be without his passion (which tends to cloud his points) and with a fresh "2 sides of the coin" approach.

The way I am going to present the book is to deal with the arguments against Dawkins' book "The God delusion" (of which there are many) and try and objectively weight them against Dawkins' own ideas.

Heres an excerpt from the opening:

"Richard Dawkins' The God Delusion caused a massive stir in many social (and political) circles. Not least in those of the atheists (who finally have a banner to which they can rally) and religious believers (who attacked his ideas with similar vociferation and vigor). The book caused open debate and controversy across the world as it addressed one of our final modern taboos: that of Religion as a concept rather than truth.

Where Dawkins strength lies (and ultimately his weakness) is in the passion with which he writes, his firm beliefs are flooded into the pages of The God delusion with incredible conviction. Sadly, whilst this moves many people, it flies in the face of the very concepts and beliefs he would have people follow - that of objective scientific reason. Certainly there is much of this reason in his books, but, unlike such tomes as "The Blind Watchmaker", Dawkins' latest effort instead attempts to beat religion at it's own game - in moving hearts and minds. Whilst this approach will appeal to many (and rightly so) to some it seems less likable. In this book I hope I can address (albeit more briefly) the same themes as Dawkins in a more objective and staunchly scientific way.

The main focus of the book will be on debunkers of The God Delusion. Those people who have taken Dawkins ideas and reasoned why they are wrong (often as passionately as Dawkins first puts them). Even now at the start I believe my (hopefully) objective conclusion will be in favor of Dawkins but do not let that fact put you off as a reader. Instead consider the hard facts and evidence I lay out here - I will endeavor not to present wild assertions, passionate speech or rude put downs - and form your own conclusions.

I am not deeply learned in the specific teachings of religion and their scriptures - in that sense I will hope to steer away from specifically dealing with text and scriptures which I may misinterpret. Instead I will try and look at ideas that people have drawn in The God Delusion and in the answering (pro-religious) texts and present it as fairly as possible.

I look on this as a laymans book - not steeped in learned teachings, throwing out deeply meaningful quotes or dealing with complex religious and scientific ideas. Instead it is a book that presents common and layman interpretations of all those 3 things (widely debated by more learned men than you or me) in a way that will hopefully bode well for weighing them against one another."

I hope that is a good start and I hope I can complete it in a meaningful timescale! The research for the first chapter alone has already taken up a huge amount of time!!

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Believe in thyself

Great film quote: "I have dreamed a dream and now that dream is gone"
It's by Morpheus is The Matrix:Reloaded and is totally nothing to do with the topic of this post - but the idea behind it is. As humans what do we crave, truely? Notice, affection, desire, acceptance. The last one is always tough, many people are different in our world and having the bottle to accept and understand them is hard.

I would say very few people understand or accept me - one of my greatest and oldest friends the other day told me she would never really understand who I was. So that leaves me without one of the things we crave.

How do we deal with a situation like this? My way is to lose myself in a world of anger and danger - the cracking underground. If any of you have ventured to some of the darker parts of the Web you will understand what I mean, out there are people with real real hate for all sorts of things. People, nations, countries all sorts. If you are able to handle that sort of pain and anger and not be drawn in yourself (think very carefully about it) then I would advise you trying to find your way there. It can be quite invigorating.

Anyway back to the topic proper. I've been thinking long and hard about what the friend said (as I am apt to do) and decided it was probably all right that people do not understand me. I mean isn't it better to be who you wish to be than to play to the desires of your peers? I think it is.

The ultimate truth is that we are shaped by the people we see around us - there are very few people at the moment I want to be shaped by, this Emo streak is surfacing again in me and like before I do like it. I've received quite a few emails recently from people who have begun to feel the same thing - the next step they say is to think "what is the point".. I refuse to go that far (I know some of you are and I don't advise it, you will hurt more people than you think you can save) but I can se where they are coming from.

At the end of the day (and the end of this diatribe) you should understand one thing: you are the only one who understands you! Not the friends who think they do (or think they don't) or the lovers who cry for you, or the religious who pray for your soul, or the bastards who play with your life like a toy. If there is only one thing you can take from my posts take this.

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This week I've also been getting lots of emails from people talking about being scared. I don't wish to be harsh (and so far I have not been after nearly 3 years of posting here week in week out)but believe me you don't know the meaning of the word. Have any of you ever had a gun held to your head, been kicked in the balls, beaten and told you will be killed? I know people who have (I've had the gun at the head before) and they can tell you real fear. What you need to do is over come any fear, once you accept something you are scared of then you can face it - faced my gun with coolness and calmness because I was not afraid of the consequences, or at least I new the only consequence of showing fear was severe pain. So take your time to think about what you are really scared of and you will be fine - I promise :)

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Your gonna love this

I keep forgetting about this place... gah. This week I've decided to spend the week doing 1 crazy thing every day - up until next Monday (after that I have exams so meh). Today I bought a new computer - for £400 :( which isn't so much crazy as stupid but there you go. I'm not sure what tomorrow brings but I'm a bit scared. There is an aim at the end of this - a couple of things I'm building myself up into doing :) but they will take a big dare to myself so this was a small(ish) start.

The question is how far can I go, ok so I have an idea of how far that is but I want to try and explore this. The further we can push ourselves the greater the reward - we'll I don't totally believe that but it will do for now.

If I achieve anything decent I'll be sure to let my 'public' ;) know...

In other news people have been moaning about my Facebook status's and how cryptic they are. If your bothering to read this and your a Facebook friend (lucky you :P) then the whole fun is trying to work out what the hell I'm on about. It's like MSN status's; they can be a great way of getting across a subtle message without just blurting it around. I try and write stuff that means something and relates to how I'm feeling.

Ok so it's a bit crazy I agree, but if you didn't like crazy then you wouldn't be a (Facebook) friend right?? :)

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Da Lone Streak

I got told tonight I was getting hung up on a girl... pretty annoying when that happens (not an expert I promise) I find. Truth is its probably true. There is a girl, I do like her but I don't think anything's gonna happen - either because I don't have the words or she doesn't have the feelings (still not sure which though). In a way now I am going along with the idea for the kicks, as well as the feelings. Regardless for the moment I cant let her drop.

Admitting that last line about kicks to myself made me realise something; I still haven't changed. I promised I would (a long time ago) leave off being a loner and a thinker and become a social and people person. Its a tough change, really tough. When your on you own stuff is os easy, you are the most interesting person there, you are right etc. etc. Being the highly educated, highly considered and highly opinionated person I am being a loner sits well with my personality.

I have changed alot though, I have a friend who thinks much the same way as I do but is still up for a good discussion about it. I just can't get on with people who don't stimulate or interest me any more.

Which leads me back to the first point, being hung up on a girl. Ok so I can't let her drop just yet but the friends evidence was the fact I nnever really go out with 'the lads' anymore and never really tried to 'pull' anyone. But the truth is it is the lone streak shining out still - very few people stimulate or interest me at the moment, the few that do I am already at the stage of closeness where it doens matter or I just know them from online. Im not sure if I am happy with this situation or not, probably a bit of both. If nothing else it gives me a chance to bitch (and to write a page of self indulgent pap like this :))

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Dare to dream

All of us have done it - many times. Dream of that girl, the promotion, that life you could have. Call it fantasy or ambition whatever - we've all been there. I get it alot when I work late into the night - or as tonight AVOID work late into the night. I've been sat here for several hours supposedly writing a website that was meant to be finished weeks ago. I like to listen to quite dark music while I work, to blot out the noise and distractions. Stuff like Linkin Park, Creed, Within Temptation and so on.

I just caught myself sat staring contemplatively at my laptop screen - with the same song on repeat over and over again - dreaming. I think sometimes it's good to get lost in those fantasies. Mine usually consist of heroics, secrets, betrayals and war - kinda reflecting the music I'm listening to :) The moral? Dare to dream, it is worth it. But (and this is where I'm going to go against what your mother would tell you) don't forget that truly anything IS possible if you try hard enough. She will say yes, you will be the hero, you can save lives, destroy bad men, save the world. But only if you never give up.

Of course in the true spirit of hypocrisy I do it all the time (pretty much every day in one case) which either puts me in the perfect position to preach this or makes me a stuck up prick (please don't tell me which ;-) )

Oh and that song? One of the finest ever written. "Easier to Run" by Linkin Park. Look to the lyrics:

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone


We are sent into this life to be trialled, if you face up to it you can do anything

(PS I hate 4am..)

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Back 2 Leeds

Short post today. Firstly because Im off out to dinner in about 30 seconds and secondly because I have a hangover :( drank WAY too much last night so I am sworn off booze.. maybe

I moved back up to Leeds yesterday which was pretty frentic - and was greeted upon opening the door by a dead rat. Lovely. My mother went ape shit over it..

I've been listening to the Frays début album again today. I bought it a while back but never really listened to it. Second time of listening it is VERY VERY good. Rich and varied and a great addition to any collection.

That's it for now. Food time!

Friday, April 13, 2007

The Myspace invasion

I've been away for nearly a week with no internet and it has been HELL :) I got back to a flood of emails from people I forgot to tell I was away... so 80+ of them to go through in a second. Luckily my gaming clan hasn't exploded again in the last week so most of it is mundane business type stuff.

The time away has let me catch up on some reading, which is one good thing I suppose. I've been looking through 2 good references on Javascript and CSS to brush up on my skills. I've also been reading the latest .net magazine.

Which leads me to the crux of this post. The mag runs a regular feature with 3 designers competing to design a website - this week for it was a website for an MP. The thing that got me was that one designer used Myspace. I get his point about it begin such an essential advertising tool nowadays but I disagree it can be a legitimate base for a full website. At the most it is a separate interfacing tool to a different genre of people or at the least a backup web presence.

Regardless I think using it as a base for a site design in a 'competition' can hardly be legitimised! To me it shows a lack of vision and expertise.

However it seems this is the way people are going nowadays - using reams of similar templates and designs to reel out mounds of boring faceless sites.

Sunday, April 08, 2007

"Got the sexual frustration..."

Before you start nodding sagely the title is a song lyric from a fantastically cool band called Arcaica - punk rock to the extreme (the song is called sex on a hot tin roof and is worth a listen). No I am one of those apparently weird breed of men (and probably women too) who don't simply live for sex - it's so boring how the topic of conversation in a group of men always ends up on that topic.... ANYWAY...

My own oddities aside I just read a really funny sex related group on Facebook. Te group was something like "Top things men should not do in bed to women". Some of the stuff was pretty funny and scarily true (considering it was written by a teenage girl who - lets face it - was mostly making it up). That sentence was ever so slightly pretentious considering I am only 2 years senior but ah well :). Regardless the funniest bit was one guys response - to post a list for women to consider. It was very tongue in cheek and highly rude dealing with threesomes, anal and hand jobs - you get the picture (some good tips there as well though girls ;)).

The interesting thing was actually the responses. Ranging from outraged women, through outraged blokes (at the women), some guys with posts like 'yeh suck my dick bitch' and the level headed sensible people who realised it was a joke. The really interesting one was a girl who made the point "all you girlies outraged at the idea of anal first should try it and then stop pretending you represent the whole female sect". Its a fair point (a similar one was made by a guy soon after) and one that shows up alot about peoples image of sex. The poster of that last message seemed a very sexually open person and talked about exploring new things - she seemed a rarity in the entire thread, the women defaulted to "ugh" and the men to the nodding "uh huh.. (but we've never dared try it..)".

Its not just the topic of sex - people have such strict boundaries regarding all sorts of things. And it's really annoying! Going back to sex, people will say hey I hate anal - what they mean is I'm scared of trying it and don't know who I can trust to try it with. Did that kind of attitude invent the light bulb????

Ok so I'm not trying to say lets get back to the hippy idea of free love and stuff like that but why not explore your boundaries rather than just set them! When you reach something you don't like, stop... I mean I've never eaten snake but I'm not going to tell you I don't like it! I don't like the idea but if I get the chance I will try it - I might miss out on something really good otherwise.

Ultimately my point is we have got REALLY boring as people (leaving the sex aside here and looking more generally). Lets stop being prude, uptight, scared and sensible and go mad a bit. I have some friends who go half way there and their the most fun people I know!!! It can't hurt really can it?
Were not monkeys any more.

I'm going to start posting blogs a bit more too (and send the personal stuff to blogger too) seeing as this is getting a bit of interest beyond the occasional good tutorial. So look out for some more regular snippets and personal stuff alongside the usual PHP / deisgn stuff :)